for the first time,

i felt that it's a must to remember events that happen today which i would not want to forget... for the first time, went to Fujisu Service Centre to get her laptop lach fix, for the first time, she went on a dinner with me, for the first time, i had a really nice stroll with her by changi beach, for the first time, she told me it's her first time with a guy too, for the first time, i knew her a little bit more, for the first time, i really really like a girl that much. today is just wonderful. Really.... Just wonderful!

My Personality test

My Personality

http://www.123test.com/personality-test/id=2242c87b399101a87

it could be my worst day

u r 1 kinda of person that's thinks other before you,
u r 1 kinda of person that's say it harshly but didn't mean it...
u r 1 kinda of person that wanna be unique, but to me u are special enuff.
u r just that witty and cute..
for that.. i like you..

i have to say i was expecting something today. i thought the K was on. but nvm it's cancel again. not really surprise.. i rather u say No, u r not going, than to give me an answer last min. But thanks because u actually think ur rejection could break my heart..
U said that there's a reason for not going.. and there's something u will tell me sooner or later.. i bet u sure know i m one kind that will thinkkkk totally into it... and u actually tell that u would tell me when this semester is over... u just trigger me to think even more only..as i m way to sensitive..

for the first time.. i met some1 who's more protective to their characteristic than i do..

u said you could fig out what i would wanna ask already.. cos u r a cancerian. :/

it's really hurts to hear what u have said today.. when i ask, issit gonna be a bad news for me. u said" to me it's could be.. " more or less i know what's it..

u know.. i would rather u tell me a hard truth than to leave to around the bush..
i rather a rejection than left me digering in the mid air. letting me know later just hurts me even more... u may not know u r that hurting me more like this.. but thanks for leaving a step for me to step down..

数到三不哭

我离开那天 季节骤变
正好准备开始冬眠
你宁愿赌气不说再见
映在车窗那张侧脸
终於渐行渐遥远
写信 说着你的改变
你的忙碌 只是为了好过一点
每过一天 就在日记上画一个圈
越存越多的想念

数到三不哭 我们有未完的幸福
生活就像缺了一块拼图
分开走的路 各自寂寞的追逐
只为了约好并肩看日出
数到三不哭 眼泪是天使的礼物
要让真心的人学会付出
在心中默数 下次见面的相处
对你的爱更清楚

数到三不哭 眼泪在适合的温度
才能灌溉出花开的幸福
在心中默数 下次见面的相处
数到三说好不哭

fate lies beneath

sometime i wonder... does fate exist?
i seems that i like to presume.. let fate take it's course. what's mine would be mine..what's not mine, i should just let go? should i actually fight for it?
i always think that personality is the key to many ans. One will appreciate you for your personality, they way you are. but seems like it's not. It's seem that words can overpower personality.

I personally think i am a better motivator.. compare to talking when it come's to reaching for a girl that i like.. it's just screww so badly.. i can't converse well on messages. people who knew me would understand.. i prefer face to face talk..

2 outcomes when it's face to face, either u lose it all.. or either you know it all..
but can fate wait for the semester to end before i confirm with you..
will it be like the 2 other times...seems that i m always late for the ride/chance...
:|

I Wish!

I say...
if you were to choose a guy, please pick 1 that love you more than u Love him.
I say...
it's because of your personality that makes me feel that you deserve what i can do at my very best to assist you.
I say...
Your Personality is Soooo similar to mine.
I say...
Certains of my thinking concepts changes.
I say...
you are a really nice girl with a good personality and i really like you :)

It's facts and i agree :)

51 FACTS ABOUT GUYS :)

1. Guys hate sluts.

2. "Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

3. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

4. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

5. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

7. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-

how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

8. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

9. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

10. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

11. Guys get jealous easily.

12. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

13. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

14. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

15. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

16. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

17. Guys are very open about themselves.

18. It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

19. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

20. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

21. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

22. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

23. Guys will brag about anything.

24. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you.

25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

26. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

27. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

28. Try to be as straightforward as possible.

29. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.

30. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

31. No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

32. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

33. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

34. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

35. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

36. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

37. Guys don't really have final decisions.

38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

39. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

40. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

41. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

42. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

43. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

44. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

45. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

46. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

47. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

48. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

50. No guy can handle all his problems by his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it

51. Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.

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Damm! my heart felt so heavy for some cause... gosh.. i feel like losing out... ARGH!!really worried siah.............really LO! how how :(
feel like asking for advice.. but who can i ask siah! ache... ache...
sooner or later man... i would lose.. :( or maybe to say. i may lose.. haiyo

My school My life My hobby

Went to NYP, April 2011I know a bunch of school mates~ saw the guys in my class. i can only say that they are truely, simply my reflection, not saying that they are childish.. but it was more like "i was like that before".. i had been through those stages, and realise, i had mature more. That's something that i m proud of myself. And Of Cos, MY classmate are AWEsome, Lovely.MY classmate typically are mostly belong to the So CAlled "Y" Generations... where their thinking, matter's like how they see things are totally different from those teens or u may call us youngster born way off 1986-9~s (the so called semi "y" generation) us. i learnt a lot from them. i totally see the changes.. they way they are brought up, the things they learn.. they childhood that the had.. it's different... totally different.. So unique and so interesting... Haha. more to learn from them. haha i get to see the true evolution of this era~ 1 thing i totally love it'... my result. for last sem.. I have to say.. I M PROUD of it.. for the first time of my life.. i got it...!! i know wat's impt now... that's y i got it...
Finally Some how :D

All in 1 update :D

i realise, since i ORD. i had not posted.. i had a full-filled life outta. Basically living somehow to the fullest so far.. :Dto sum up. july 2010 - march 2011, i work @ ibm as a IT-Cordinator. Stress at work but funniest colleage out there too! we shared the pain, the happiness, the anger together.. we work as 1, help as 1, die as 1. No matter how political other party's are toward our dept. We are not knock down definately, well exceptional for our team leader~~Janet~~ she's easily blown, but she way too nice. ..Aniwae, Cos we Are a Team. Love ya IBMers~ Cheers :D

Singapore! gosh.. u made me so confuse.. i am wondering seriously, i m studying that hard now.. being truely being A Citizen or another generation of working slave.. are we really ur beloved Citizen? or are we the man-power next-to-be.. ? let's see.. dun made me feel like a lost lost sheep in the nation.. singapore :(

My Freeeeeeeeeeeeedom!

Before that..
Wishing All mother of the world a
Happy Belated Mother Day!
aaannnnddddddd. It's has come! i m gonna Ord soon. Yea! that's probably what all Ns man are all desperately waiting for.. cos they may have been suffering inside... but, i m really enjoying myself in there.. how i wish it's not gonna stop. life, we definitely have to move on=(
Moving on
Event's planning~ Found a job that's really unstable.. Maybe?
Not sure of de person if he could be trusted.. i was think am i that lucky? will he be the so call "Gui Ren" haha could be a kick start to my career? lol, I Really dunno.
Anyway, nth to lose out should i screw up.. lol..
Getting my driving license today! =) After the 2 year of hardwork =) getting a license is definitely worth it n of course save lots of $$.. so eager to drive. but thanks to sis. she bought the car insurance of age 30 and above. which likely to say i m as good as not getting a share of The use of e car. But's it's okay. i'm not really in need of that yet =) the day will come when i get to own it myself.. hopefully! lol.

I may use finger to count down for my ord finally.

i can finally see the dim light from the door label "ORD" from a far distance away!
i'm so excited to it, but what will happen next??

The ORD i yearn for..

Two years apparently seems very long when one enlist into national service.. Seriously, 1 Blink of the eye. i'm gonna finish serving the dreadful 2 yrs. It's really fast. i learn a lot. Gotten a free driving license, Life learning experience.
What am i gonna do after these? i'm still kinda lost. though route was some sort. "plan". but sad to say. the route seems far... but well. i didn't work hard though. haha
Gotten into a poly courses. in nyp which relates greatly to what i've been through during ITE days. Well that's next yr issue. gonna work hard this year, earning hard for my future expenses during my poly days.. haha. that's for now.. see 1 step walk 1 step den.

"Yea back from field"

finally back from the miserable, dirty and most boring sabawang camp after a week. =D
and guess wat, tml's our coy cohesion day.. ... "woohoo" haha zzzz
k sleep.

May this week pass fast!

Hate this coming week, after my POP from Tekong since last yrs march, i had not been in the fields! and this coming week i'm gonna be out in De FIELD.
1 week outfield namely considerating as my ORD package of what i known of, not to mention can't go home, and comes the following Saturday of my company Cohesion? namely "Chinatown amazing race.." (Lol) it's definately something we Gonna""" enjoy. haha.

1 issue
An example of the so called emotional asa "emo" that i flash across an example, last week. something which i finally understand to my own extend. my own opinion kz.. Emo can somehow be Elmo. haha that's not funny.

Sometimes emo to others, can really means fussy, Irriation, craziness over certain issue, such to the extend of being lame towards self. where other might not know watcha feeling, might not seen watcha doing. only self understanding of wat U,urself are emo for?
Yes, one can emo, and who have not emo before. If one doesn't get emotional, we might think he have no feeling, but not for too long as you must always tell yourself to get it over and done wif, first ur friends might be able to give a listening ears, but, "listen" BUT being emotionally down for too long might become a fuzz for ppl around U. not to mention being Emo as and when a person can be, whoa that's kinda scary and hard to handle... lucky i'm not one of it. haha. but once again i shall say i will nv know know how deep a person can be emotionally hurt.. haha, but looking a my older post..i feel like slapping in the mean time laughing out loudly to myself. I, TK have actually been so emotionally myself before. Haha.i dumb. =.=" bodoh!
Once again u nv know how deep it can be yea?.. haha Cheers! =D

Back to Sqr 1.

A head start of a brand new yrs 2010, a year fill with unknown and suprises. a year where most of ur friends will turn 21st (which i think it's kinda impt of an age hop [yea some ppl dun forget. haha ]). a year where friends might get much busier (be it, studies? working? Wif Mr/Mrs Right? etc.) haha! 2 ladies flying off soon. arg! see yea nov.

Happy start of the year, Off we went to Msia, had sooooo much fun during this getaway! greats deals for the ladies. not 4 us -.- haha, however greats food and elses too for us. but most importantly it's the moment of us enjoying this short holiday. Not too blend not too salty. it's just nice! Probably 1 of the best.

Well back to the usual sucky boring life. Basically, Entertaining wif some of those imature regulars, so old yet so childish, so young yet so naggy, some worst, doing rubbish work yet seem like enjoying. Lucky i'm old bird enuff. nv touch me. if not, nv ending. everything's back to Sqr 1. there. and Woh! i just realise, Exactly 5more mth to Ops Ready Date June 11 here i come! =D

What am i gonna do next? i shall see. but poly is a definate must. but as to when to go in? i'm still thinking. Let's see what could i do this year ahead of me...it's still cloudy ahead man.. lol..

TK

i'm bored.

So Great! having long holidays! off in touch from SAF, so shiok nv drove for at more than 3 weeks! maybe because i'm one of the seniors there le ba. but Sooo Bored! i m doing nothing at home everyday. my life and sleeping hrs changes! o dear now i barely see the sun for 3 hrs...i sleep at abt 5 am everyday. i dunno why i can't sleep to.. and woke up like 3-4pm everyday. in like 3 hrs the sky was dark again. zz. die la like this...

I'm not Emo la =D

I dunno why, when i kept quiet for an instance. i'm being said EMo? haha. that's was long long time ago.. haha. It's FINALLY A HOLIDAY. OR LET'S SAY A BREAK FOR ME!!First time in 2009 i'm not gonna receive calls from my Companies, asking me to get back During WEEKENDS! wohoo. though i receive. I'll Definately turn down! now's the time for me to preserve the precious Bounding Time with the rest of my frens to those who are going Abroad. and to those who will be much much busier when they got emself posted to Regimental Units furthurs.OMGosh! , JM. now den i know you are going there for 5 yrs!! ~.~ omg. if they had not inform me. i'had presume that it's only for a yr or 2. haha. Well that's definately gonna miss you. And u better meet us more often. =D now. haok, i dunno wat am i gonna do these fews coming weeks. but my mum had task me assignments to paint ours house walls. Cool huh ~.~" but definately not painting walls everyday..
Yesterday evening, Our whole companies line went to attend one of out fellows mate's mum "Sonka" after de fall out. I'm so sorry for him. he was that friendly, that kinda cheerful to see everyday. but that particular moment, we were all loss for words. all i did was a hug and a word of " Jie Ai Sun Bian". now, he's the only Bro that's taking care of his yr bro and that's all. sad to say he was only 22. haiz..I think we ppl really gonna cherish wat we guys have now. be it our relative or anyone. it's better to say out asap than to keep in mind and not able to say it anymore...

2d1n msia. Ah gong's 80th birthday

Let me give myself a flashback and let's not to forget these beautiful memories that have gone through my 2009 before crossing the path of 2010.

Nov 7 sat,
I had like.. a typical Ah Going Birthday Celebration in Kampong, which is held in my uncle school hall, with Invitation to many kampong resident held in a kinda rundown kampong school hall,
This trip to Msia, I see the unite of the resident where they will come and help up in setting up the small party we are having in the evening, the kinda celebration is not seem in the modem era of the lifestyles of ppl anymore. Maybe that's the diff between we ppl now. haha!
Well, it's was organise by my uncle, well my Gong~ have abt 6 B and 3 G, and 1 of it was my mum. Which's the side i'm closer to. I'm so happy to see how e the whole event run a success except for the black out at the school halll HAHAHA.
Wonderful present for my's Gong! A trip to Starcrusie from my sis and mum, and even to Guang zhou by my youngest uncle.
Thankful for giving such a beautiful family and realative=D
I m lazy yo type more. let the pic shows.

That's My Gong~

Invitation Card

First Gift was a Power Tap!

A ROLEX!

That's was my family Gift with 4d3n cruise trip for my Grandparent

The Guangzhou Trip for 2

Not shown here. but it's a gift of a 34 inc lcd tv back at home.

Yu Ren Shen? i guess haha.

Casio watch, a pair.

Yu Ren shen too? lol

that's my dearest little cousin.


i was force to wear this hat. but somehow it look nice..




and that's the heart-warming relative i had back in msia.


Games time for the kids.




prepartion.



Wonderful time i guess. and a memorable 1. =D

Chemical Def.

August National Day was indeed a very busy month for my workplace.
this is the 4th's time, i've spent my days at home within this month.
And yesterday was my 4th time lying on my warm and comfortable bed at home.
This week waS a very happening week, i went for my chemical Def course. we were taught to wore those face mask and personal protective suit which weight more than 5 kg.. zzz and spend the whole day under the freaking hot Sun learning all those Shit..eg. Shitting, eating, drinking by wearing the bloody suit. i do not know how many other ppl have wore this suit before me and it smell so Good, i can presume the previous user was an ah-neh ba, cos the aroma still exist. and worst my suit became heavier due to my prespiration and it smell even better! i got 'poison' by the aroma, having serious headache that night man...
The next day, we enter the gas chamber, we were told to do those shit we learn yesterday inside..as we were the first group to go in,the moment we step in the chamber, we started seeing ppl shouting for help already. their Gear had leak those chem gas inside em... lucky i was told to tighten my mask.. and i saw them struggle out..and the instrustor ask if and 1 still leaking, i feel like raising my hand so i can get out of there immediately, i begining to scare man.. but i wanna try. if not no fun. haha. We did those shit and the finale was to take off those Suit that we were wearing and feel the sensation of the chemical Attack. the first breath that i inhale wo the mask, we were ask to proceed out of the chamber. the immediate effect came. i can feel thousand of needle pricking on my face. the gas i inhale, Tear instantly, drool like baby, and mucus keep flowing down my nose are uncontrolable.. but it recover some 10 mins later. it was Suck! What an experience. zzz