Sunday~ as usual

Sian going in tonight. Arg~! every sunday will be so call the most "sian" day i always had. i m going in tonight after 2 wks of confinement.
EH? why the F the days go by faster when ever i m out of camp..
Yesterday meet up and had a little drink with the guys =) it was thought to be kinda boring. i was so boring at home so i join. haha so i meeta the guys at ard 2230 hrs. kinda surprise it was actually meaningful to meet up like this every once in a while... after that kh suggest we had supper at simpang bedok. we caught up with the last bus ard 0030hrs and we actually talk all the way until 3+ in the morning. more of thESe TO COME!!! =D Cya man! go lo!

Bmt Re-course

going back on re-course,
I hope i'm gonna be a loser there. hA!


i mean Weight loser. lol

Cheer me on man!
Hopefully, it'll make It!
A Different when the course had finish.... hope so...=D

Room's Scream

24-5mth!! 19 mth more
Get Outta There! it's gonna Blow!!

After Blown, honestly i dun know what i wanna do next time after my ns. feel like finding a deep vally to scream at and hear the beautiful echo back...
tml duty 24hrs! . shagg AH!

.~Hopes everything went Well~.

Locked life.

Yes Ah! Back from duty!
Encounter quite an errie stuff yesterday. ha better dun say plus i lazy typEEE.
Hmm, sometimes i wonder what's my aim of life?
frens were all so busy outta there, some even try their ultimate Best to spend their 24hrs fruitfully. So am i gonna suffer the next xia ban bei zi ba? lol.
Hoo I got my Sg Citizenship.
honestly saying i'nt proud of it. =(
Feel so compressed into a smaller country.

Gd luks! and an Joy~

Whoop, heard tat eric is coming to ns
Hope you'll adapt to it! and welcome!

Sorry can't be able to attend to ur farewell dinner

anyway! wc again!

Pic frm L:
eric, russell, me

BUSY BUSy BUsy Busy busy!

thought that during the driving course is the most pathetic moment a nsf could be... now i realise, my pathetic moment has just started.... back to my unit in mtc(mindef transport), every1 thought it was nice to be posted there , driving GP cars, Merzs, Audi, mini bus arg so on...
yes there's no lorry for me, but it sucks honestly, every vehicle had a price to pay.. had an effort to work for, damm have any1 ever wash a vehicle after every details? lol yes we does... and fri i had hit the longest distance of driving ever since i started driving, 200+ km. woo.
my mileage is easy to claim man. but it was damm tiring. lol had some holland too tat's y. fri nite i had drive all the way since noon. till bout 4 pm, den had some naps and rest till 7 and therefore continue all the way till 23++hrs so tired tat i stay way back in the camp to sleep till the next morning. before heads back to home.

Well, i'm going back tonight, not becos of a must to book in but i had a detail tml early in the morning. @ 0700 hrs o ya it takes bout 1hr 40 mins from here to mindef. even the first bus won't make it on time hax..=(, sux. i thought i'll lose wg, lol.

A quiet quiet evening.. i 'm gonna play bb.~ Gone~

YES!

I pass my TP! weee =) tat's y i can book out today haha, having free off day till next wednesday,
hmm let's see, now i got Class 3 n 4 liao haha, from landrover - 3 ton - next wed 5 ton lo!!! everytime i learn, the lorry is getting bigger =.=" it's kinda stresss, but anyway again, PASS TP, wehehe..=/ Frens going aboard nxt yr... Sian =( nvm.. play to the fullest this year first ba...

back...

It's long since blog... doing fine. anyways, having my driving TP tis coming wednesday.. wish me luck.. may i pass... i hope. =X hahax. it really wonder wat will happen next year.. who will be there to celebrate X'mas n new years. like wat the guy, we had said. it gonna be a last last X'mas and new year. these grp of fren is dispersing.. bit by bit, 1 by 1.. .haha, look like goonna get prepare mentally haha.. enjoy this years of celebration...=)

Argggg.... i m dead bored.. zzzz
i see all the coys are booking out on thursday, but i m not... enjoying life now ar? haha think so too.. wonder it been so happy recently, seem that it won't be of any problems now...
Ease.... it's at ease...

in camp now. broken a promise i wrote here..
sometimes writing out my own feel, even though 1 may not understand, but when i get to scan through all of wat i wrote last time..
seeing no 1, hearing no 1... i feel like i'm fucking outta of dream, finally out, in the wonderland where i use to be... =( i didn't like tat, but's tat's great actually, i see the true fact of my own life. i had to face it 1 day too... even though it might hurts a little.
from a greater pain, sharp pain, ... and then slowly to numb and numbless... the impact eventually goes off..
in camp, everybody call my buddy paris hilton, u guys should know wat it's means.

Sianzation... Signing off~
.tk.

I had no title for it. becos i dunno wat can i name it with, well won't be able to blog nor can i blog 6pm today, cos the starhub internet will be terminating it. for some reasons my parent nv wanted internet before at all. so for most of my time. i pay for my own internet usuage. =x
okay. back in focus, 2 more days before i lost my freedom. haha, kinda lost freeedom becos u will be stuck up in ns for like 2 yrs? ya 2 yrs. so ..
i tk here Bid a good farewells to u guys. ani1 out there~~ seeing this. bye~ i will be back asap. haha =D thanks for those whom really thinks i m a frens or urs as through out a life time, real fren that u can meet is not much, thanks for all the ppl i lye before, becos they leave me wif a beautiful memories throught my part of life.

~~~~

okay, thanks for all the understanding, i'll be enlisted on tis fri.
anyway thx... dun be unhappy anymore le. k?

Re:

if my post upset u i m sorry, but maybe my sorry 2 u would be like drinking water, breathing in fresh air ar~ feel it the way, i m taking word "sori" for granted... But well, dun care le cos i m serious about this.
i didn't see it in the game when u said, unless it's a "how bout u two?" where ming replied, which i presumed u were askling luff and her,
and looked, i wasn't mention about u or anyone... it's jus simply my thoughts.

I DUN want to explain animore, i was always explaining, i m tired...
if tat's the case it'll be better not to write animore. it'll be useless for me to vent out all my thoughts.

I m really sorry about it, i lost tat hand chain, not in my house, it's becos i was always wearing it...
i wasn't happy, i was jus sad...

Busted Days.

Sometimes it's really good to "not known" wat had happen than to know wat exactly is going on, it's make you sad, unhappy. makes u wonder and think even more. it's like when u know frens's out w/o asking you along, and they are really ppl whom you really think u treasure, well it's better for tat not to be known. cause tat's hurtz and show's how "my status of "fren lvlS" i m at"
i really dun mind if i wasn't ask out. but at least dun let me know tat. it made me feel busted.
but i know some1's there were realli frens. whom appreciated.. =D

Everlasting Days 30 May 2008

OPPS~ sori! i had not blog for a long time. =X

Been's busy, playing perhaps. wasting my youth away. ani way next 2 week in camp le. so dun have to worri. Lifes been like blend blend? tasteless, no sweetness, no salt, and of all

bitterness fade... lye wat every 1 said, "time's Heals" ...
my lifes was like Work, play, sleep, work play sleep.. X1 days, X2 Days, X3 days. ARGH! lifeless!~ should my enlistment come in oct. i will really cry man. lol.. but luckily it's coming so. WEEeeeeEE
~ few my frens were veri bad. they say Enlists 1 "me" walking into the camp. come out end up 4 person carry me out. HAHA i laugh, but may not be funny. to me's this kinda joke is okay. but in terms when, trashing up my diginity, family. i would retaliate. w/o thinking... but lucky tis nv happens before. jus tat some word would sparks me off to talk back. haha.... can't control =X SOri.

aniwaes all the best... 2 u and tc~ always... Buaiz~ T_T

By Silence, I Hear Other Men's Imperfection & Conceal My Own...

Monday Vesak Day

Wow. how did i spend my vesak day? uhm play coms. at home lo. at nite evening i went to meet my msia fren to play basketball. they kept running and i keep chasing until i hei hei chuan... den the 3rd round i stood there like a shooting machine liao. lol. lazy to move. and moreover the shooter machine is inaccuarte. lol. ok.
HAPPY VESAK DAY!.. uhm happy vesak day? did i celebrate it? no! haha..
i suggust there should be a public holiday called, gaming day! haha =D , i guess this celebration would be universal if apporoved. hahaha...

i know, we are answering each other qs. indirectly in a way.
if wonder how's she doing, i will check it out. indirectly too..
my frens said they didn't understand wat i said, but i told them, if they dun understand is alrite, as long as sm1 does. hoho... tat will be fine. ^^
at least problems and problems are solved, but in a veri veri veri slow pace.. tat better than keeping quiet.

Thursday, Usual Day

Yes it's once again mid-night another day have pass again. i was late for work for 1 n 1/2 hrs today. sian.

alarm to me dun see an effective device to wake me up animore.

i had totally no sense of alarm ringing every morning.
Still remember last time i can woke up anitime in the morning jus to give a morning sms to her. chking out on whether woke up a not. trying my best ensuring she got sch on time. den i continue to sleep. ahaha. aniway tat's past.

but i myself in the end nv wake up on time for my school. haha i was always late for 1/2hr or more.

Still remeber i got my "O" lvl result. i was shock. everything was alrite? Dnt b3, math b3, chin b4, Combine huma b4, AND THE SHOCKING ENG E8 OMG!!!! i saw it. i stood there. like a statue. hahaha. still remember called my mum told her. " i fail eng" she laugh off and said. " dun joke la" . ok den, i hang up the phone. and went home. ly on the bed everydae, after tat frens call up and we eventually meet out. fail o lvl still got the mood to go out haha. went off ate seoul garden i rmb. saw all my fren disscuing wat course should they take. but some were too. in bad mood jus becoz of their result, i didn't got tat sad. i expected a C6 for my eng, but i din expected it to happen, o ya btw my science got E8 as well. but well i did expected tat kinda of result for my science and i was prepare for tat. so impact wasn't tat great.
okkokokok, i got myself to ITE Very luckily, Y I SAID LUCKILY BECOS the requirement for my Info-Tech was minimum of E8 english, D7 math, and E8 for science!! which i feel i m at the border line of the entry reqirement for tat school. phew, i told myself.my cher even say every single seat represent 3 people on waiting list... haa. consider others. i m lucky enuff... alrite i stop here first. continue tml.

a usual days comes. after i had the unusual...
unusual days come after a storm..
storm come after outbreak...

outbreak come after dispute...
dispute come after a series of misunderstanding...
Misunderstanding come after they way 2 people think differently of a certain matter...

Amazing wednesday.

beens like 2 days since my colleage never come. i was doing twice the amt of work everyday .. so tried, everyday reach home, wanted to sleep, my eye simply wan to close, but whenevea lying on the bed, i can't sleep, see wat's the time now. 1 plus reaching 2am, i still cannot sleep, i realli like to think a lot i guess. i kept thinking. thinking, thinking...every single things, life, troubles matter, Ns, frens, everything.. etc
what had i?/would i? /could i? have done?
some matters might be over but it leave a deep impression. every1 preception of me is diff now. some are talk out, some are left quiet, in a far corner. let's make the time cure everything. well lifes nv perfect without frens. books say " you had never experiece teenage if you had no frens." i agree.
haha ^^ alrite, Deadbeat. time to force myself to sleep.

Can ani1 think on my side.
when the misunderstanding took place. every1 misunderstood in on or another way.
I thought she would have been a person who had know me better. not to think it the way they feel i m, maybe i was wrong.

Snoring away.

Saturday, bored.

okay. i m no life. lol. work and sleep and work and sleep. basketball at times. facing the computer staring endlessly, didn't realli know excatly wat to do? i have a com!?

which i badly wanted to paly game when i was around sec 1 - sec 3. i was despo for games everydaay. my mum didn't allowed me, which i would always feel tat. omg! i always tell myself. always play till full when my mum's away. cos i won't know when the next time i play again. haha thinking of tat. i realli see hw kiddy i m, haha
AND now`! computer was here everyday. yes i agree, when the com curfew was realease by her when i graduate from ite. i had enjoy myself for the 1st week, 2nd week, ... i started feeling so bored omg~! den i realise. often, OMG i m bored from the games i play. which in another makes me started bloging.
O ya, i jus feel like i m a dazzy, my colleage said tat too. haha, they say they can see me like a smiling budda. den they suan me say i m sure a smilyy budda tat cannot see my eye when i m smiling. damm it!.. i dun 1 to be a budda T_T... alrite off first to meet them up clear things up. build the the rappot wif them hopefully, i dun 1 a sin in my life. or a "look upon" by ani of them. off i go~!

a diamond won't crack. cos it's not a living thing. h3rt will.

friday, Farewell dinner,

i had farewell dinner wif my colleage today, her last day. she's gonna leave the co. haiz. wasted. another talent gone off the company jus like tat. =( honestly my co. ppl were more like a fren to me. instead of boss, supervisor. ha. once again, my twiny winney eye has be a limelight for every1. to joke around, i dun mind tat. cos my small eye has been said since young. hehe.

went plaze sin ate, ajisen ramen. oya. nv ate the extra large bowl

cos a normal bow could already fill you to the brim liao. make u extra full, after tat went to supermarket to buy ham and eggy. gonna make ham egg mayo tml. i m tired le. nitez.

~wow~

Wow~! day really pass by fast. especially when u r kinda alone?.. a blink of a eye it's already been the corner of the week. o~ tml friday le. 1 exact month to go before being? bald? haha, yes and i PASS MY Basic Theory with jus 1 shot! haha! but sad= (

my sis fail her's.. we wanted to celebrated together if we pass as we told each other. but too bad. if not i sure have a good treat for her =) still remmeber saying something tat i read on the bao zi about horoscope tat i m kinda "studying recently"i 've brought the fews papers home le,

but i haven place them into my pc. when i have done i'll upload it. hmmx it say, almost all shoking thing to a pisces tat i could be.. but somehow it seems so real to me. i'll try posting it tml or the next day ba. stay tuned.

so much for knowing you. nevertheless, it's still nothing.

KaKaBoom!

!~Roar~! me

So? what's with that comment?

so quiet.?

eNlisted~!

did went for work for today, sick. have rashes all over body. proberbly allegy to something ba.think i eaten dried beef ba. had itch all over yesterday. didn't sleep at all cos too itch. but alrite now. didn't see doc. every thing seems find after a long sleep.
and yes!~
my enlistment had come. ~4 SIR~4th Singapore infantry regiment, heard tat it the chiong sua forces. quite xiong. might kana scout. i think. which is like war time = first to scout, which is = first to die. haha.
and the usual trraining i heard at forum will be mostly at cemetry. O.o...

there won't be ani war ani where. so be it. hackcare.

See u there leslie. hehe.

if ani1 wan comment anithing, call me and talk me. y bother urself with a "."
What's ur meaning here? trying to flame? Call me and talk it out ba.
dun tag wo ur name.i accept critism, but critism wo ani name. fck it.

time fly.

time fly. but my ns letter yet to come.. i m lifeless now man.. zzz loss of direction, where should i be going? i m stuck within my life.

quiet.. peaceful. assaulted.

Aftermath

Nothing to talk about, i m just alive.. living blindly and die w/o knowing wat excatly i've i done.
miscommunication! perhaps... but no 1 say a word after the aftermath. no ans was given after all these ragging and screaming i had swallow. life jus carry on.but jus carry on differently in one or another place. i guess i had to find out the ans.

25.04.2008

It's was a misunderstanding or maybe miscommunication.
I TK, here by apologise to u guys. Wat i said in the blog was harsh, a moment of folly at the point tat time. i expressed wat i wanna to express. and further in game wat i said to sherry, I was never hyprocite, neither am i acting pitiful .. 1 hrs of waiting isn't easy.

U guys have know me for at least 6 months and some even 2 yrs...
Should i try to be 1? i really up to u guys to judge me.

And my chat was with "lol" and others.. it was at a relaxing tense.

And Sori Frens, I was nv a bit hyprocite.

i know how a hyprocite is like. but i nv knew wat i said i actually look like 1

if u guys saw i wrote. den tell me i m still fren of urs? thnx

BINGO, Fk it,,

Woops i Bingo. As expected. i gotten a msg at 12.30. cooooool they say ain't going.
so wat the 1 fking hrs down my block, i waiting for? unpuctuals frens? XcoolX

Cool. coolllll Fking cool

sorry for not blogging yesterday. i was too tired to. i reach home i sleep staright away on thurs. i work till 9pm. cos i have to reply the email till it's finish.

when reach home i bath le straight die on the bed all the way till friday morning...

now it's 12.04 . FUCK MAN those guys say they gonna go out and supposing meet me at 11. and guesss wat ... i waiting 1 fucking hours. i was so damm freaking pissed offfffffffffffffff... i dun fell like going, but i din't wan to stay at home... so i hold my anger first. but pls.
MY FRking patience have a limited. 1 hours is too long. now they are hanging around eric house.. try out gameing stuff wtf.. can u guys juz tell me so i can make my way up home first. is tat so hard?? fk... he juz msg me " we are testing something" .. wth,.... and some more. 11pm. " wait a while" and the wait came 1 fucking hour.. Sorry my patience have a limited. and the limted fucking exceed. let me guess, they say they were heading west coast.. before 11 pm.

LET ME bet here.
They are gonna change their mind after tat. cos they are enjoying see the games ..
we'll see about it! i wil apolo if i m worng after tat. .

Piss OFF.............she's lost.....so is my buddy. so is every1
fk it why does it always have to be so cruel to me? fk it...................... FK IT!!!!...

Plss Enroll me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haha, Wat's me gonna me? 30 b4 or 30 after.?

or maybe can't even reach 30 wo.. haha lame -.-"

Frk man... sad.. why isn't there aniiii Ns enlistment letter ... i wan to chop chop finish NS~ chop chop Chiong my poly le. dun waste my time.... pls, god................ other got le i didn't get. heard that june intake was for the "physically not good." which means need for exersise. THEN WHY THE FUCK I M NOT IN.? W8 FOR NEXT YEAR AR? nb... i dun 1 to be like my fren.


w8 for 2 years and yet not enlisted. i call em and they said, "it will be sent to you when it'


s your turn." totally dun allowed to be enlisted. tmd.... Angry...


ani1 got basketball? i wanna play.. but mine burst sian, i pump pump pump den suddenly got 1 BOOM! sound... >.< rot.. I've work so hard for work this month. times flies.





Alright! tk here! taking a vow to every viewers!!(cos he accidentally vow to his sister..) he's not gonna drink soft drinks, sweeten drinks, Only mineral water. and of cos "tasteless water" unless other wise. =( should he!, slap him ... ahaha..
Cos he's a Shui Tong. grew fat tat way... (great...lol.) help him control hoho..

5th week since.. it got better, she got better too.but in another way. Thumbs up for every1.

Boring monday.

I work until 7pm today. i can't finish my work load by 6, den i stay back and do. wif 1 of my colleage there. it's boring but i reply 149 mail today. comparing to normal days which is about 50-70. i reply 149!! quite a lot. but no prize. juz commitment.. something positive that i have ba.. i m quite a patient person ba.
This is the first time i feel so bored. i did not think about anithing on my way back, i was listening to my mp3. keep listening, so quite. annn jing. i using a earpiece that can stuff up the whole ear and cannot even hear a single think outside... hope to get silent from the noisy lonely enviroment.. i dun keen on anithing animore...

"Frozen.death.lonely.me"

Sleepy sunday..

I had came back from chalet since friday nite. Friday i play whole nite de majiong intil 4 am ++ den i went to sleep woke up at 7 get prepare to work at 9 at china town. zy supposingly said that he's gonna accompany me all the way to the bus stop. in the end he pang ssei.... he was snoring away. i know la. i ziii tong.. dun bother to disturb him up juz to acc. me walk to bus stop

cos i was so far aways. we are not at downtown, we at costa sand pasir ris,... took like 10 mins to walk to bus stop. and i reach office at 9.24 late -.- by 24 mins. den today check out at 8+. take cab home with frens. reach home le bath around 10 am in the morning. i sleep all the way until jh called me and said that they were eating steamboat around evening.

i woke up arnd 5.45 bath le den set off to meet them at bedok int. reach geylang eat steamboat. not bad ... quite nice normal normal steamboat lo. juz that got aircon. a bit cooler. they wanted to go ktv. i din't want to, i dun a ktv tat squeeze 10+ people and 3 mic passing around. i dun mind if it's my fren. but got people i dunno der... de.. i dun like....... they gonna sing around 2+ morning ba.. she got bros, to tc of her everytime le ^^ guess i dun need to worried bout her animore
i think i should stop le..... tired. nites

BBBBBBored~~ buaiz

a busy day today... it's kinda of early blogging today... coz i got to go off soon...
buaiz guys taking a long break off cabal, everything...... I should get a life man. wwwwwwwwwwwooooooooooooooooooooooowwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!
RRRRRRRRooooooooooaaaaaaaaRRRR
well today as usual email come, Reply email... do and do over and over again all the "thank you" "Dear Sir" "sorry for the incovience cause" type until sian... MRT is so squeezy TODAY!! den i Asshole sweat like frk go rubbbbbbbbb me. nb.... sibei tulan. and my ear piece spoilt today.. cos i broke the string.

w8 next month pay ba den i buy 1........... currently kinda broke..

reh ssim... 700170 ot kcab teg ot tnaw yllaer i
R.I.P

Quiet.. think.. imagine. fear...

Okays.... quiet today. my frens went ktv todae. how i wish i can go. but maybe they choose afternoon de. Wat can i do. i told them at nite le... cos work
recently begin to got intrested in horoscope. i "study" as and when i get to see. everything seems so true. wat are they writting, getting to. wat happen. it's kinda accucurate for my kinda life. I quote 1 from horo from mine Scope(双鱼座), it saes "blah blah blah.. den the final sentence, ""Learn to accept it.." tat's wat they advise me.. it was like okie. should i heed the advice a not? nvm tml i go take pictures of wat they sae. den post her ba..
haiazz..........well nvm.. learn to be Accept and be Glad..

She's doing fine now, My shadows should leave soon..
SSSSSSaaADDDDdddD! LLLllOOooSStt!!! CCooommmPPLiiicatttteddddmissHeeeeeeer.!..

.....4th week since......

I had a normal/bad, day today. nothing much to talk about.
somethings is amiss. but i dunno wat's that neither do i wan to think a bout it. i miss that..

tc.. =(
Phone does not shuts animore, neither does it rings animore....

Eh.. eh.. way too sad......

went home wif my sis together.. take no.33 from Chinatown, den swap to bus no.14....

Whoo Hoo.... Guess wat i saw today when taking bus no. 14 home... cool man.. if not i wouldn't knew too..

Everything was not successful already
I think i still have a gangs of frens well, not my best fren.. but at least, bros..
but i think "BROs" i take this word simply too easy... wae too easy...
朋友与兄弟之间, 差别很大 they are my bros, but i m only their frens ba.. haha.......



*(pathetic man u fail in either side of ur life.)*

Pain....

It's not that.. i said someone doesn't wan me to play ani more.. something hurts me more than tat. words tat was nv realise. it's seemable and understandable by others. i m really sorry that i have to say that out because i realli wanted u to know .. words was said to me before i said i didn't wan to play animore... something unnice to hear abt.. and i make a U-turn cycle round. another unnice words came by.. would this be a ways u are talking to others?(maybe i was xiao qi ba..) i was so damm sad.. and tat's the reason why i said.. "(dun talk* to him in a way, even a talking to a stranger could win him far off...)"

sori. i drift the anchors apart..(can i join them back again?)

I always so so upset when unnice word were said. I will never blame you because i dun think u did this on purpose. I will always think.. did i sparkle you again..? 伤心都来不及了，何况去怪您。。

Please! nv think that i hate you... becos i dote u more than ani others, tat matters...
请不要恨自己，因为我会更恨我自己
Sori... sori...对不起 =(
我真的不想这样。。 真的。。

no one is at fault. misunderstanding is the fault... (maybe i m ..)

let's embrance each other again.
Can i request.. to clear up all our misunderstanding?
hugs hugs.
构构手? (sent me msg.)

Aww aww...

I GOT A Bloody big sui pao on my leg ARGGGGGGGGG! cos i nv wear shoe to play basketball today.. arG! pain sia. now walking super pain LOL , no choice la cos i ask for it LOL... who call u dun 1 wear shoe la. i m ah pui already, but today got 1 sibei big ah pui step on my leG!!!!!!! 2x my size some more WALAO EH. 100kg on my tiny last toe arrg orh chey liao la.! Si Ah pui Pui. i'll sure smack his belly next time LOL. i hope enlistment come in asap. i wan a better physical man.. and botak also haha. i wonder how i look like when botak hehe i'll take a photo down when i cut botak for BMTC. hohoho. take a be4 and after shot. weeee!

fate - faith - faithful - Fatal...from sour to bitter to..i dun wish a taste ni more

Shooting star!

O.o i saw a shooting start yesterday at bbq! i forget to blog it up my after post yesterday. Russel saw it too. unfortunately i did have a time to take down a photo. it was a twiney winne shooting star. and only in a blink of the eye. as heard from tv, to made a wish for a shooting star seen.
I've made mine. hopping for a better days. fren and family get's better throught out their life... and my blessing off to her..
Do fine pls! stay cool and cheerful!

In 07-10-07, I miss tat kinda of u.
tag me guys if u have a blog.

Y is she sad, confused, lost, uncertain..?
If u are suffering alone, i'll be worried. but if there's is some1 you can talk to, it's ok.
but if there's no1..you can always share wif me wat's bothering you....
perhaps tat will let u feel better... Yea? Called me/msg me.
it's will be fine after a shivering rainy day..
=)

i m performing like a fren now..

again! another quar. sparkled.. haiz. kns... y am i aways being "insulted/ threaten" for no good reasons ,n others dun? it's not tat i can't talk back or wat, but for a person tat i dote, i'll nv do tat man..I can take it for once, twice, thrice, i can't everytime. hyper tired.

It's climbing above my head. damm it...i can't apologise animore..cos i too tried too, i feel i have the rights to deserve1. to ani1 who seen,

"if u dun treat tk as tk, treat him as a fren at least.
, even if you dun treat him as a fren have, at least.. basic respect like how a stranger being treated as.."

她和我说话的方式，比起她跟陌生人说话的方式，还差。。。
难道。。。我是(她的)眼中钉?(hope not)。。。
那怕我当陌生人也好。。我也令愿当个陌生人。。

(dun talking to him in a way, even a talking to a stranger could win him far off...)


let me get off this single-sided luv cirle round and round....

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It friday today. guess tml gonna had a super tought day. later gonna wake up at 7.30 am off to work, den evening time got to rush back home, den meet my frens out at east coast park for bbq outing, next day still got works i wonder i can tahan a not. but aniwaes should be the last few times we all get to meet together le, they are starting school veri soon, well i gonna be super sian le. no more calls. frens all schooling. Hp changes, but nv rings like before animore... Guess tat's a fullstops. tc. dotes u bless u.

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Ghosh! Look at the time now! it's 3 plus, late blogging again. my mum found my lost wallet at msia. woo. now can change le. wee.. Ns Ns faster come i m awaiting. guess tml gonna be late for work again ARg!

juz now went changi village saw a lot OF She-male juz like andrews hahahaha!
but some realli look pretty. some dun lol. all at the car park roaming around awaiting business. but i can see business not quite good sia lol. i saw 1, den he/she stared at me -.-" her na na was like eeeeeeeks. lol, ok SLP! nitez tc.

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As usual worked todae. take mrt home so so squeezy... Jus came back wif my frens out eating supper, i ate man zzz suppose to cut weight but the food tempt me haha. gain my weight again. today . tml whole day again . hope dun commit mistake like today . make whole co. suffer. i delete all their Print Q list.
lucky no 1 scold phew.

3 week le... thing's got better, hope still can be like last time, as talkative as ever, if u have anithing unhappy or upset about, i can still be back a listening ear like ever before, okie ^.^ tc care always..
"u always seem to be happy in present. but deeply i can see ur stuggles, i wanted to help out but got it even worst. =x"

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In A struggle. ..

Okay, I have jus finish editing tat shout out -.-" and i had a hard time adjusting the size. but finally! it's done. phew. going sleep le.
Today, it's like striking toto! my sis actually treat me dinner at Sakura. soooo sooo rare! haha i nv ate much cutting down haha. preparing for ns. here i come! woos. it should be fun ba. i hope =)

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Went out today for the whole day since 12pm in the afternoon today, we went to celebrate jiemin's birthday. Had a suprise for her, hehe after tat went to paris*(dunno how spell) for high-tea buffet, Sux like shit the food. totally hate it. i rather eat a KFC than tat, lol. Den we went pasir park -.-"" dunno who suggest 1 lol, Bored but we had fun. like yesterday.

din had time to meet up my guys. sori le.. =( wonder is she doing fine, ok slp le tired....

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i m juz back from outside, went to pasir ris park wif my guys. we had fun. thought some din join in>.<, I have been Out cast, Be it i have not/done wrong, i wasn't hated hopefully, but treated as a strangers... So happy to have a company of frens to share each and every of our unhappy matters, happiness among us, in that twiny yellow Sports cars. we talk our depth out. felt much better now. woos!

Cheers tk.

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i juz have a bit on cabal. Frens have all gone to Premium server le. seems tat it izzn't fun animore. we can realli get to the same channel le, but it's not their fault aniway, it's the server caps tat's is so minimum.. a simple log in to public server will easily take about 20 mins. so long.. hmmx decided to stop gamming at the moment. back when i have the moods ba. At night den talke ba. i go rest a bit first ^^

it's late.

Back from Yishun den. gee =) i feel so better now. ^^ i was so moody fews day ahead. so sad. so emotionally down. so... so.. haiz. there so many thing i'm unhappy about. o.. ya today morning i had a super headache... i din went for work den my sis nag n nag sob.. but alright after a long long sleep i woke up at 8 am. bath le. den super heaache. i ate panadol, told my sis and decided not to work den i sleep on.. until 6pm -.-"! i actually nv ate... woo.. haha. * burnt fats*. den woke up le play basketball-.-" so angry when playing with those adult that elbow me >< damm it! man. feel like kicking his ass. lol. i kick i sure die lol. tml work at 8 am o.o look at the time now. TK! u bloody hell! now still blogging! hahaha ok off i go. WhisP~

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today. Went to work again, so tired now. but insist on blogging, i can say out wat i feels, dunno when will my blogging heat last. perphaps i wasn't playing game recently ba, i being to explore the arts or blogging learning how to make make pic slides, upload song, etc.. learning slowly hehe.
I had hell lot of paper cut today damm it!
today aftersoon super heavy rain.. somemore got thunder. i was shocked twice by the roaring sound when i was replying my email, den my colleage all say i timid.. but i m actually not scare of anthing de lor, just that i had a phobia lor, a thunder strike twice in front me when i was young the strike was like 5 m away from me. i could easily die man if i m 5m ahead. >< Phobia since sob.

So damm tired now. i shall sleep. nitez bloggy ^.^ wrk tml.
Takecare to those whom i dote and care about. Wrk is impt but dun neglate ur health.. =(

looking forward...

O.o, my grand pa came from msia. bought lot's of durian i eat hell lots. but i cutting down my weight lei -.-". i die die want to sit on the bumper boat on the nxt trip Genting which is >70kg!!! damm it.! cos i n over.. by 10kg i suppose. lol.

i realise People are treated differently with regards to a certain matter, imagine a same joke is crack by 2 personal(A/B) to a person, 1 thoughts for person A might be funny another for person B thoughts might be lame. 2 diff person ba.. 但是不同人, 有不同的待遇吧..
I feel tat way too sometimes towards my fren(A/B) too. if u r the one.. suay lor. i m, hahahaa. but nvm le.
I was always thinking.. wat happen? am i wrong.? maybe it was me.. but i felt insulted sometimes.. and i'll get angry for no good..

Well, my thousand sorri would not be enufff. I've said my sorri.
I think even if a guy is not/in the wrong, i think we should be more gentleman for me to say sorry first... to me,
I 'll Stop getting myself stuck up around..i think is clear, but i didn't wan it to, i have no choice. T_T

Haiya, HAHAHA!! Think too much also no good la. think more i think i will get more and more emo man! i felt much better now, i speak my heart out. so cool! <3 Blog. LOL. bye!
Kinda tired, nevertheless. give me some time i'll be back on myself.
*=) smiles! always tk!

Work today...

Siannnzzzzzzzzz start work le, heng heng lady boss super good to me. cos i been working part time at tat agency for 3 yrs le. haha. well i do all kinda think there. carry tables, update webby. sorting invoices, e-mail reply. bleh bleh bleh. so on. haha. kinda old bird der le. today i saw boss. and he said. " Who Ask u to come here?" "why is he here?" he asked the lady boss.. den i was like.. o dear.... den he whispered to me april fool. den i remember apr fool todae. ha XD...
well. wed le, 1 wk le.. i realli want to say. i nv wanted it to happen de. somehow it juz does... haiz. alright. off i doze zZZ..

o.O

hmmx sometimes i wonder, there's sm1 whom i dearly dote. I aways wanna talk with. but it's super hard to maintance a proper conversation with her. I always wanted to make the chat as relax as it could be, as less-stressful from de stress got from her school as told. but eventually it'll always be a 180 degree turn upside down... dumb me ar=( ... i realli didn't want it to happen... who would like tat right? but sometimes i must admit my words are a bit far too off too. sometimes i would realli wanna find a best fren to talk to.. well. still finding.. ok call off a nite. off to tried to sleep.

Dazing wondering...

hmmx back. my heart's super heavy now. haiz. it's been 3 mth since i nv sleep well. i can turn and toss around. for abt 2-3hr easily everyday before i get to doze off. yan zhong shu mian... i always get to think wat actually happen. everyday. i think, i think and think. tat's y i can't realli sleep well ba.
Loves
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U
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(for now)

Blog?

well well, i dun like blogging actually. i have no idea where my best fren is. i can't talk to ani1... well might as well keep wat tat actually came across my mind here. maybe at nite i will post. right now. i m testing. hehe sori i still noob at tis... give me some time. ^^